The last year of University.

It was the last year of University when I needed to take in charge my life. I had to make an important choice.

Choice 1 : School before everything else.

Choice 2 : Mental health first.

School before everything else.

The last year of University I was suffering from a performance anxiety. I was the time of student who always make sure she had straight A’s, but behind all these good grades I made myself sick. I really wanted to have the better grades possible to make sure that I will have the best future possible. It was a though year because I put aside all my friendship to make sure I will succeed everywhere at school. I really thought that my decisions were thoughtful. I was maddening about other people saying that I will regret putting school before everything else to be successful when I will be on-the-job-training, and instead I will have mental health issues. I had two choices.

Choice 1 : Prove them wrong and work very hard for my success.

Choice 2 : Letting others win.

Mental health first.

The last year of University was really maddening with school. I was studying to be a teacher, and I wanted it to finish very fast, so I could feel happy again. I didn’t care about my future career. At that time it wasn't important to having straight A’s all the time, so I put aside all my homework and studies because it was too much though for my mental health. I didn’t care about my future, and I wasn’t doing the important stuff thoroughly it was more cursory. Because I wasn’t feeling mentally well, I made an important decision, schools will pass after my mental health. My school and my future can wait for my body to have more motivation to work harder for what I really want. Anyway everyone thought that I will never be able to become a teacher. At the end of all I had two choices.

Choice 1 : Prove them wrong and work very hard for my success.

Choice 2 : Work on my mental health and do my own thing.

Prove them wrong and work very hard for my success.

I decided to listen to what my heart tells me and work hard to be successful on my OJT. When I was on-the-job-training as an intern of a teacher, people were still mean to me, and I was overwhelmed by that. I understood that day that no matter where you are there will always be a person who will try to convince you that you are not enough. Several staff members had bias towards me because I according to them, my generation are lazy and cannot do nothing. I didn’t see that as a drawback but more like a motivation to prove them that I am a good trainee and that I am here to stay. I have two choices.

Choice 1 : Work harder than them and be more successful.

Choice 2 : Let my future colleagues put me down.

Letting others win.

I decided to listen to everyone and stop doing overtime studying and working so much. I was overwhelmed and the OJT wasn’t starting yet. I was experiencing the drive of work and all the pressure of behind a teacher before the on-the-job-training because I was over preparing myself for it. I realized that at the end of all I will gain the same wage as someone who put less effort than me and experience beautiful moments with his friends. The scary thing is that I will never know this feeling of freedom because of my performance anxiety. The first week of My OJT a male teacher which other teachers told me not to trust tells me that he could help me if I will give him a favor in return. I have two choices.

Choice 1 : Accept the help of the male teacher.

Choice 2 : Listen to other teachers and don't accept the help.

Work on my mental health and do my own thing.

I decided to take time for myself and work on my mental health. I really liked the idea of becoming a teacher, but I didn’t want to work for someone else. It stresses me out to teach in person, so I decided to open my own business of homeschooling teachers. This job his perfect for people like me who live with depression and anxiety every day of their lives. I decided my own rules, so no pressure of fallowing the office politics. It will feel fulfillment because I will not be going to be stuck up in other colleagues’ drama. All of this normally came with worthwhile and a lack of anxiety. The only thing is that I don’t know if I will be able to have a good pension and be able to pay my mortgage. I had to make a choice.

Choice 1 : Take the safe option and be a normal teacher.

Choice 2 : Follow my dream to have my own business.

Work harder than them and be more successful.

I have been working really hard as an intern in this school for a month. Some of my colleagues told me that I learn the ropes really fast and that I am really good at teaching. The good impression even made his way to the human resources. They made a background check on me and wanted to hire me directly. It was a good deal because this job came with a good compensation package. They even offered me a premium wage to do overtime with students who have difficulties because I teach well. The staff members who had bias towards me were mad that I became more successful in my first year of teaching than them in 15 years. Some of them wanted to harm me because they thought I was I will take their places. I had two choices.

Choice 1 : Let them ruined my career as a teacher.

Choice 2 : Reported the situation to the Human Resources.

Let my future colleagues put me down.

The constant pressure that my future colleagues put on me every day put me down. I wasn’t as though as I thought. The Human Resources hire me for a month now and since that day my means' colleagues harassed me to quit my job. They don’t want people from my generation to work with them, and they misconduct towards me. This job definitely has ins-and-outs. The drive of work and all the stressful drudgery will not be missing when I retire. Maybe teaching somewhere else will be better or just stop teaching will help my mental health. I had to make a choice.

Choice 1 : Go teaching somewhere else.

Choice 2 : Stop my teaching career for my mental health.

Accept the help of the male teacher.

I didn’t listen to the warnings of the teachers and accept the help to prepare my class from the male teacher was offering me. I should have refuse because I didn’t know he would have wanted something back. I first thought he was flirting with me, but I found out really fast why other teachers hate him, it slowly became sexual harassment. He told me that if I say something to someone his going to hurt me and, my family, so I was stuck with this situation. I have two choices.

Choice 1 : Stay quite to make sure that no one is going to be hurt.

Choice 2 : Report him anyway.

Listen to other teachers and don't trust him.

I understood that something was wrong about that male teacher and decided to stick up with my problems. No one beside this guy offered me their help. I am not the type of person who complains a lot, but I felt overwhelmed by the drive of work of being a teacher. My colleagues are not super sweat, and the environment is stressful. I had to make a choice.

Choice 1 : Confront my colleagues.

Choice 2 : Stay in a stressful environment.

Take the safe option and be a normal teacher.

I decided to take the safe option and be a normal teacher because I don’t know if my dream will come true. I know that I would not be as proud of my fulfillment, but I know that I would be able to pay my mortgage and I have good pension. With the money that I set aside since I started working will help with my retirement. I for sure regretted not following my dream but at least I don't have to think about money and, if I am able to pay for everything.

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Follow my dream to have my own business.

I followed my dream, and I am finally happy about that choice. I would have regretted if I had to experience the drive of work and all the stress of being a normal teacher. I know that my pension is not as good as a normal teacher but at least I set aside enough money during my life to be able to pay my mortgage and have a great retirement. Being happy is the most important thing in the world.

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Let them ruined my career as a teacher.

There were five teachers who dread me to quit my job. They really deter me from working hard and be a good teacher. They actually bullied me, and I was too scare to continued working in this environment that I decided to leave and make my own business of homeschooling teachers. At the end of all my goal was to not let them win and be more successful than them.

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Reported the situation to the Human Resources.

I didn’t want them to win, so I report the situation to the HR and help me to get the bullied out. They actually suspend them and did a background check which we found out it was not the first time bullying for two of them. Know I can teach my students in peace and not being scared of someone hurting me mentally. I didn’t want to quit because this job came with a good retirement package.

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Go teaching somewhere else.

I know that it can be simple to fired one person but five is a little harder. I am not the type of person who’s going to steal someone’s career even if they are mean to me. I just hope that one day they will pay for how mean they are. I just decided to go work at another school and have a better environment. It was the best idea ever because I had the best teaching experience and the best colleagues at my new school.

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Stop my teaching career for my mental health.

I decided that it was better for me to stop teaching at a school because even if I go to another school there were always going to have some toxic people. I think that it was a good idea to become a private teacher. No toxic colleagues and environment brought me so much joy in my private teacher career.

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Stay quite to make sure that no one is going to be hurt.

I don't want to risk that someone will be hurt by this guy, so I decided to stay quite and stick up with his harassment. It more difficult when you experience it. The thing was that I didn’t know much about him and want is capable of. I lived with this pressure on my shoulder, and it made working really hard. Luckily the next year his wife got a job opportunity in another country, so he had to live, so I was finally free.

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Report him anyway.

I didn’t care about is words because I knew that if I reported him, he wouldn’t know it until he would be arrested. I can not live like that all my life and hope that one day someone it will stop. So, I take the situation in charge and reported him to the police department and since then he was arrested. I felt the pressure living my body and the joy coming back.

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Confront my colleagues.

I felt like I had to confront my colleagues because everyone was watching me struggling and no one offered me some help. They all saw that the drive of work was affecting me, and everyone would make fun off me or gossiping behind my back instead of asking me if I needed them. One time, at a meeting I started explaining to them that it should be a teamwork instead of making fun of me. I was the youngest and, I was the one explaining this to the older one, everyone was feeling cheap after the meeting. Since that time everyone makes me feel like I was a part of the group and that I could count on them.

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Stay in a stressful environment.

I didn’t want to make a weird atmosphere in the teacher’s group, so I decided to stay in the stressful environment with no one to help. It was not that bad because it taught me to be tougher and made me stronger mentally. The lesson is that I can do it, I don’t need some superficial people.

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